I should start finding the full-stops, or commas at least. Because I've been shoving myself with too much question marks and exclamation marks. It hurts because there won't be any solutions. And I'm stuck with short paragraphs instead of a story. To stop writing is never an option.


But to write alone is too much of a burden. I need a co-writer. Is that possible? A co-writer.
Yes, a co-writer that can continue this story with me. I'd like it if Fred was meant to be my co-writer. Did I? Or did I prefer Carl? What matters most? Which one did I like or which one did I need? Should I be selfish or should I be rational? Again,too much question marks. Well maybe I am simply not a good writer.

Not making sense. To you, not to me. Well at least today. Maybe not tomorrow.



Most ridiculous,

Me.

A letter to you. [Well,technically, its a blogpost.]

Dear you, [ what I can do is just create this post and pray that you read it]

You see, I am excellent at over-thinking and I probably am right now but I just have to give you a piece of my mind. Listen, I love you okay? I love you as a person, I love you as friend and I love you for the sake of what we've been through together. What you plan with your life is totally none of my business but I just have to say something,I don't want you to do that. I don't want that. The thought of it rips me apart. Drama much?Yes, maybe I am being dramatic. Don't care. I just want you to know. I wanted to reach out for you but you know more than I do that I can't. I can't. When it comes to you I always feel so powerless. And hence, this post. So now, here I am asking you to reconsider your decision. You've always been different from other person. You know what you want. And I love that about you but its because of that as well, I am scared as hell.

I know the chance of you reading this post is just 1 out of 10 or maybe if you do,you wouldn't get it. Or worse, you might think I meant it for someone else.Anyway, I just had to let it out. I'm sorry if I hurt you a billion years ago. I was a child. Pfft. Sorry, this is stupid.

Yeah, I'm still contemplating on publishing this post. I guess, if you end up reading this, I did publish it.


p/s: I'm sorry for being a coward.I'm sorry for not being able to tell you this upfront. I'm sorry.

Heartache to heartache we stand.

Thanks girls. ♥

It was far from normal.

We rarely get the chance of being told straight in the face, what kind of person we are.Erm, I got that opportunity today during our Kemahiran Insaniah. And I wept like a baby.Literally.

I was overwhelmed of the fact that a person that I never knew, will be able to describe myself,better than I ever will. Scary, if you think about it, but its the TRUTH. Can't help it.

Pfft.Can't even think straight right now. Freaking confused. Wait...I wanted to type something..can't..remember..Sigh.

I think I just went through a short term memory lost. Heh.Sorry guys.I'll get back to this when I finally remember. Prolly I'm just dead tired. T_T Good nite. ♥